My Fallen State of Trump Derangement Syndrome (TDS)
Sometime last year, I experienced a blackout in my neighborhood that has since triggered a wave of paranoia in me that has become relevant. In hindsight, a nightmarish scenario that now isn't far-fetched.
The incident, which occurred late at night, left me fearful for what's to come.
More recently, I got attacked at night on the street by some dude who asked for my ID. I'll speak on that more soon, but on this night of the neighborhood black out, I stepped out onto my front porch to see if other homes were affected. It was then that my neighbor came over to update me on what was going on.
It wasn't long before the neighbors and I noticed a bright light break through the pitch darkness down the street, but I couldn't really see what was being inspected — as it was obscured by trees.
I noticed some of the neighbors go back into their homes, which I took as them being alarmed by the light. That was enough to spark a chilling thought: There's an ICE raid happening.
The truth is that it was the weekend and I was on my second Four Loko. But I also had a job interview in the morning, and as I went back to my room, I couldn't shake the feeling that something was wrong.
In my mind, ICE caused the blackout in order to start their raids. I imagined agents going door-to-door, dragging people out into the streets.
My Thoughts of the Use of a Microwave Energy Weapon
As I sat in the dark, I fell half asleep into a state of hypnagogia where I experienced sleep paralysis.
In this state, I felt a hum — my face started heating up. My thinking was: They're not going to kick down the door. They're using a weapon that emits a frequency to melt us all inside.
What I didn't know then was how precisely that experience maps onto what hypnagogia actually does to a brain. The hum, the facial heat, the paralysis — those weren't symptoms of something happening outside. They were tactile and auditory hallucinations generated internally, which are common in that threshold state between waking and sleep. The paralysis itself is one of hypnagogia's most intense manifestations — the body offline while the mind remains partially conscious.
The more telling part is what happened to the fear. Hypnagogia doesn't neutralize whatever's already occupying your mind — it weaponizes it. Logic loosens. Emotions intensify. What had been a genuine, grounded fear about an ICE raid got literalized by my half-asleep brain into something almost cinematic: a directed frequency weapon. A specific technology. A method of execution.
While my experience is surreal, it mirrors the real fear and confusion creeping across America — and likely felt by residents in Chicago's Old Irving Park, where ICE agents were.
My State of Disorientation
That's not crazy thinking. That's a scared brain in a dissociative threshold state doing exactly what hypnagogic brains do — turning ambient dread into concrete, sensory narrative. I'm naming it accurately not to dismiss the fear that produced it, but because the fear was real. The country that produced that fear is now our reality, but as we look at the sources of this military weapon, it could be that the weapon isn't entirely real after all and rather, my TDS.
The Influencer Chain for the "Reality" of "The Discombobulator."
The weapon described as emitting a disorienting frequency was reportedly used in Venezuela during the operation that led to Maduro's capture. Here's the account as amplified by Mike Netter — and here's what Snopes made of it:
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Take the time to check it yourself, but the original "reporting" traces back to a social influencer's account out of Venezuela called Varela News, which translates to Watch This News — that has since been wiped from TikTok, likely for violations. He's started a new account, but there is nothing predating September 9, 2025, exists anymore.
Mike Netter is simply the second generation of "reporting" that story — but also, he's a pro-Trump influencer laundering content from a TikTok account that got kicked off the platform. I hate citing these people, mostly because they aren't official sources. And given that both are committed pro-Trumpers, their credibility is problematic. They're just a road built specifically to carry more of Trump's lies.
That idiot spoke about the use of this weapon in an interview with News Nation when asked by Katie Pavlich:
Speaking of Venezuela, there was a weapon used, a sonic weapon but took out many of the Cuban bodyguards that were used to defend Maduro. Lots of people saw the details about that weapon and were concerned. Is that something that Americans should be afraid of, something the United States should be combating?
That American's should be afraid for this pulse weapon to be used on us?
It's something that I don't wanna... nobody else has it. We have weapons that nobody knows about. I say, it's probably good not to talk about it but we have some amazing weapons.
Again, look at the sourcing for this.
But Here's the Thing
.Hotel Nacionlae is one of the locations where the syndrome was reported|Jongleur100 - Own work, Public Domain, Link
Havana Syndrome in 2016. I remember that report specifically — U.S. Embassy personnel in Cuba describing a directional sound, neurological symptoms, bleeding. A real investigation. Congressional hearings. Compensation for victims.
So why wouldn't there be a weapon?
That's what makes this whole thing maddening. The historical record makes the Venezuela claim plausible enough that it can't simply be laughed off. A viral TikTok by an influencer's post becomes a White House press secretary tweet becomes a presidential boast about something he called "the discombobulator."
It's propaganda we've never encountered before and, that it's rooted through this administration is more than enough to discredit it.
A Questionable Account by 60 Minutes
For the most part, this episode of a 9-year investigation relies on the accounts of various victims in the American government. The military weapon is itself, said to be Russian but 60 Minutes' claims are based on their own trusted sources.
We know that in journalism, you can't reveal everything especially when people don't want to reveal their names to protect them. For a weapon that is said to be classified, you can trust this reporting or not. The sticking point in their account is that the US as obtained this technology and is or has tested it out on animals.
And Yet I Got Attacked One Night
However, something more plausible is reality is of when I got tackled one night over a week ago. The account is questionable, at the very least by one person who wasn't there. I was alone when it happened and everyone else has gone as far as to say that I need to be alert at all times especially when walking at night. I've been told that my decisions may very well put me in danger. More about that as I gather more information down the line.